Palliative Care

There are occasions in everyones lives where you are forced to take difficult decisions, knowing that either choice maybe wrong and will leave a scar; neither choice is suitable.
We have been forced to make heart breaking decisions about Arjun’s care from Do Not Resuscitate Orders to Limitation of Treatment Agreements, why ? Largely to prevent there being difficult decisions being made when we are at our most vulnerable, emotionally aggrieved and mentally exhausted.

It took us many years of frank and sometimes harsh discussions with consultants, specialists and family to conclude that the decisions we were making for our son were the right ones for HIM. As Arjun’s seizure activity progressed to somewhat uncontrollable at times (now they are controlled with meds) it was made clear that any respiratory arrest would leave him in a much worse condition than he is currently, that in someways we would be prolonging his pain. Further, deprivation of oxygen to his brain would result in devastating consequences. At the Charity, Together For Shorter Lives, a comprehensive ToolKit outlines clearly the broad categories for moving frim curative interventions to palliative care.

Guidance taken from The Children’s Charity,

Arjunfalls under the life-limiting structure. 

The paperwork for the LOTA ( this replaces the DNAR) is incredibly detailed and takes lengthy meetings to finalise. It was not until we started to attend Martin House Hospice that we were alerted to the impact of the LOTA, that it would detail the specific interventions we were allowed to have some say over. The legality of the paperworks is pretty daunting but ultimately, Arjun’s care is taken care of (mind the pun). He has palliative care with limited intervention, it is for this reason that each time he is so poorly that we know it could be the end.
Even more difficult than the LOTA has been writing his ‘End of Life Care Plan’, this goes even further; we outline what happens at the point of death.

Despite all this planning, nothing will actually prepare us for what will come.
For many reading this there will be some judgement; ‘how can you deny him medical intervention’, ‘his life is as precious as any other’ , my answer would be ‘Yes it is, that is why we have made the most difficult decisions a parent can make, when our son dies it will be without any invasive, painful, and intrusive intervention. He will leave us the way he came to us; peacefully’.
Our religions (Sikhism) manages to give us hope and allows us to accept Gods will; He will take back the son he gave us when he is ready; peacefully.

9 thoughts on “Palliative Care

  1. Thank you for sharing this honest insight to the impossibly difficult decisions and conversations that take place. Our website has a range of resources to support families through these times ( although we acknowledge the importance of having the love and support of families and professionals around you.

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  2. You are a very caring family .The choice you make are what’s right for Arjun and the family. With all love surrounding him he’s one very special man .I am so glad to work with this guy over last 4/5 years and always my favourite!! His smile lights up any room and melts hearts and giggle is pure joy

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  3. No body has the right to judge the decisions you have made for Arjun. May god give you and your family the strength and resilience to endure what fate may hold for you. Much love to you all. X


  4. When Matilda died we were not given a choice and didn’t have to face these terrible decisions. I am now grateful that we were not as I now know that the decisions I would have made would have been for me not her… everything you do for Arjun is for him not you, you are amazing Raj. Very much love to you all Xxx

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